Pretty and Sexy?

(Ikaw ay nilikhang kawangis ng Maykapal, sino ang may karapatang magsabing pangit ka?)

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Hmmmm….

Men are always attracted to ladies with great bodies and pretty faces. What to do eh?

They are “MEN”!

Sometimes, by just looking at Barbie dolls “walking down the street”, confident, head-turning, would make less endowed women say, “Whoa! Kill me now! That’s stiff competition. I wouldn’t even dare go against a Goddess!”… Men would say, “wowoweeeee”, kahit minsan kasama ka pa  😦

That would be a bit more of a torture if you see drop-dead gorgeous Adams walking in front of you (and ignoring you, manigas ka! hahahaha) – as if saying, “you can look, you can smell my scent but…..hmmmmm are you beautiful so I can let you have a piece of me?” wahahahahah…. (female version – “you can look, you can smell my scent but…..hmmmmm are you handsome so I can let you have a taste of me?” mas wahahahahahaha…. buti na lang hindi ako maganda at sexy to make my mind be that vain hahahahah!

I had that same feeling before, even during elementary, even during high school, even during college, even now…hehehehe  (Insecured pala? Bitterness lang ^_^)…Seriously, I was the “Ugly Duckling” hihihi! That translated to insecurities that I need to compensate… that explained why I became so active in other areas… just to seek attention and approval ….hihihi (KSP pala! hahahahha)

Actually, I also do admire beautiful gels as much as I admire handsome males ( oi hindi ako BISEXUAL ha? Straight ako, pramis! ). Natutuwa ako na ang kanilang mga features ay parang mga diyos at diyosa, parang mga hari at reyna… Natutuwa ako na makakita ng mga ngiting nakakatunaw at talagang hmmmm, nanakaka…lingon ng paulit-ulit…

There was a time when my room was filled with images of Aga Mulach and Richard Gomez… There was a time when Vin Diesel was my man! There was a time when I was so engrossed in watching Korea-novelas because the faces of the lead stars are really in my mind even when I sleep…(talk about the Meteor Garden fever!)… Blame my teenage hormones!

I loved being in love with the lovely faces, the perfect bodies and the immaculate images… but that’s about it…

In real life, such beauty and flawlessness can be very deceiving…

I remembered Anton Diva (of Punchline and Metro Bar)… Twas my friend’s birthday blow out, my first time to watch stand up comedy… (yes, that time Vice Ganda was just a regular stand up comedian there)…Vice Ganda sang first, his voice was outstanding! And his acts, hilarious! After sometime he announced that we will be treated to a musical journey by “The Diva”,  then came out Anton…. He was not introduced as a “he” so I really thought he was a “she”! She started belting out  Regine pieces, OMG!!!!! She/He was effortless!!!! And after the intro song, he/she said, “Pare, nangangati ako, pakikamot nga dito, naalis ata ang pagkatali! ” ,in a low, husky, manly voice!!!!! Hay naku, halos himatayin ako sa kakatawa (first time ko nga remember?)…. Sa isip isip ko, “Anak ng pitumput pitong puting kabayo! Kanina, naiinggit ako dahil ang ganda ganda nyang babae! Ngayon, parang gusto kong sapakin ang sarili ko dahil ang napakagandang “babaeng” ito ay may nais ipakamot na nakatali?” … Gusto kong sapakin talaga ang sarili ko hahahahah!!!!

Pero naisip ko rin, kawawa naman siya, siguro pag nakikita ako o ang ibang katulad ko na “AUTHENTIC”, siguro yung nararamdaman ko ngayon, yun din ang nararamdaman nya, kasi nga kami ay may “bahay-bata” at siya ay wala…sigh… YOU CANT HAVE EVERYTHING, you know, you know, ahummmm…..

Ano ba ang kagandahan? Panlabas nga lang ba, ok na?

Hmmmm….  maaring sa iba, oo. May mga lalaki kasi na ang hanap ata ay trophy, pumipili ng babae na pwedeng i-display. Ganun din ang ibang girls, parang mas in ka sa girls talk kung ang iyong boylet ay photogenic. Kakakilig di ba? Siguro sa elementary at highschool level, ganyan lang. Mas guwapo o mas maganda, mas may maipagmamalaki ka sa barkada.

Pero pagdating ng college at beyond college, medyo nagbabago. Bukod sa guwapo at maganda, you would start talking about the future., about being together “forever”. You would start building dreams, you would start sharing a lot, and I mean “A LOT”…

This is when  the paradigm shifts, say 180 degrees.

Kahit gaano kaganda o kagwuapo, kung di mo na makasundo, sa maraming bagay, mas gusto mo pang i-give up, humiwalay.

I did experience that. Sabihin na lang natin na di ako” pretty and sexy” pero ewan kung bakit ang aking mga naging nakaraan ay kabilang sa mga “IT” boys ng eskwelahan… nung highschool, yung brightest (at pinakacute) sa klase nila, nung college, yung corps commander (napakatikas), after college, yung smartest (at gwapings na nilalang) sa grupong kinabibilangan nya…

Nagtataka ka? Ako alam ko na ang sagot. Kasi nga “trophy” ako, hindi sa ganda, kundi sa kakayahan, at opo, medyo popular sa aming lugar (hahahaha)…

All relationships failed. Bakit kaya? Kasi I found out that I can’t expect  FAITHFULNESS from people who see themselves as Girl-magnets…(Bitter na naman hahahahah) or maaring insecured ako… hmmm maari din…Meganungfactor din 🙂 Oi, di naman kasi sila marunong maging discreet pag naglalaro. Nagpapahuli. 🙂 Blame me not hihihi!

Since then, my choice has always been a “man of character”, a person who “walks his talk”, a person who can maintain a  funny but sensible conversation. (RARE SPECIES  hihihi). I could easily sense kung nagpapasikat lang para makakuha ng attention (talk about my experience di ba?).  I FIND A MAN WITH SENSE VERY SEXY hihihi… kahit di kagwapuhan basta kaya nyang tapatan ang aking kaisipan, HE IS SEXY and HANDSOME for me…

Minsan nga, I was set up with a blind date by a close friend. Naku naman, gwapo ang boylet pero puro yabang naman ang ginawa , ayun, mas gusto kong umuwi na lang at magpahinga. Nagbabay ako before 8pm… beat that! nagkita kami 7pm, hahahahaha….AT DI NA AKO UMULIT! Pambihira!

PERO……

Lahat naman tayo, maganda at guwapo di ba?

Una, dahil kamukha tayo ni Bro,

Pangalawa, sabi ni “Myself, Me, and I”

Pangatlo, sabi nina nanay at tatay

Pang-apat, sabi ni kuya, ate at bunso

Panlima, hmmmmm kung sino man ang gusto pang magsabi nyan sa iyo, yung tumibok ang puso para sa iyo dahil tiyak, ikaw ang pinaka…. sa kanya

O, ayan, marami rami naman pala eh. Kaya minsan, smile na lang ng smile.

Kasi ang personalidad, tulad ng kagandahan, isa ring malakas na magnet. Kahit di ka pang Mr or Ms Universe, kung may kagandahan kang taglay inside, kaya mong patagalin ang isang relasyon…. way way beyond sa time na mag appear lahat ng wrinkles nyo pareho….

Malay mo, may mapadikit sa iyo ngayon?

Pag nagkataon, may mayayakap ka with matching titig, twinkle twinkle eyes, heart beating fast, inhaling the scent of love,  feeling heaven, floating with the magic of the moment…. MAGING SINO AT ANO KA MAN! waaaaahhhhhh cheessssssssyyyyyyy!!!!

Tapos na po. Bow!